actually had 2 detentions on both yesterday and the day before. was late but i skipped them anyway. nobody cares. (:

happy birthday to ming ye on the 26th of july, which is yesterday. i was too tired to blog as i waited for his call. i felt my heart sinking when he put down the phone, my first thought was...

is this really what i want? i still have no idea. im sorry. i really am. i wanted to bring everything down, further and not that painful but it turned out harsh. its all my fault, hate me.

he calls me every night no matter what. and now, i will still wait. for he is so dear, not like normal friends. more like a brother.

days went on. bad decisions were made, happy moments did come but i dont know how i can handle them. the time you got to know everything was wrong, you wouldnt know how to react and vice versa. why is life so fucked up? made me not wanna trust people so easily and crappers appear outta nowhere trying to pull you down to hell. made me see life as a dread. oh forget it, i'll stop.

choir on tuesday was bullshit, mrs C had to show her siao attitude at us for nothing! wtf's with that? we dont owe her a single cent alright. shes giving those ass crap talks and wanted her shoes to fly right in our face but at least held back. arghs! i kept the anger in me to myself, smile all i can and felt like watching her fall down for a moment real badly. arghs! talking about it makes me sick.

finish watching '霍元甲' on wednesday and i like cried in class. -.- alot were telling me bout the lousy and uninteresting story line it has, all the wushu and stuff like that which is, not at all true. i, in my view thinks it is quite a inspirational movie, which tells people who think they are actually superman or superwoman to wake up and think. it aint gonna work that way. aiyah too many comments. should stop. =p

the good news for today:

i'm not late!! =D

thats a good enough news, to start the day in a good way. haha! rubbish.

bad news:

i broke a glass funnel during chemistry and i didnt tell mr tan ah liong. =p

watched narnia during LCD today and its kinda nice. who got the vcd leh?

leh long leh long~

(:

english period was a dread, the relief teacher actually wrote 'keep quiet' on the board and expect us to see. he should really shout like damn loud, it does work. fell asleep and was on my mp3 when mrs song came in and i couldnt hear her waking me up. syuffuddin almost strangle me as i was too dead asleep. everyone was looking at me. =/ -.-

went over to cwp to get the materials for farewell party on 1 august @ 430pm, music room. choir seniors please take note.

browsed almost every other gift shop and bookstore but nothing was found. either it wasnt suitable or too costly. comics, more then words, popular, gift a name, cold storage, mini toons and cards n' such. nothing. back to comics after that to beg the SHUAI GE UNCLE to help us look for suitable ones and he did by calling the main office for stock. they did have it.
you are welcome lah uncle. (:

P.S.
my mp3 is found thanks to angela 大姐 and ah teck 大哥 for taking care of it for me. haha!


愛一直沒走
愛一直在我們眼前展開
我會記得
你所有的一切
雖然我真的不明白
當初為甚麼愛上你
可是
我已經不想明白了
你離開的時候
我曾經掩面痛哭
我以為我這一輩子都沒辦法再愛了
我以為
我就要乾枯了
我以為那一天後自己已經在愛情裡死亡

我一直沒有忘記你
並不是因為我現在還愛你
而是因為你教會了我愛
而是因為我從你不懂的愛我的身影裡
學會了下一次愛人

mr su ming zheng gonna treat me ben&jerry's tomorrow!! yea!!

;i am afraid